I think that all the time. But then I think, in 5 years who are they going to be to me? Probably nothing. We all would have moved on. But my family are still going to be there. And why would you ever want to do that to them. They’ll only blame themselves. Stick in there. Everything gets better with time. Day by day. That’s all you have to do. And you’ll look and feel like the strongest person in the world at the end of it.
I’m not contemplating suicide. I mean it metaphorically. As in, just disappearing from their lives cause they don’t need me. Why would they? I’m just a waste of space to them. But whatever. I want to graduate high school so I can actually start living and not worry about this anymore. I want to grow into the person I’m supposed to be with or without them. It sounds stupid I know but why do I need to be ignored everyday? Why do I have to suffer? I’m just tired of being on the end of the stick. Thank you though for this message. I appreciate it.