everything happens for a reason, look i spent the last 3 years of highschool in the worst mood, hearing people saying shit about me and laughing. you don’t have to feel like you deserve people to leave you, if they leave is because they didn’t really care. just get focused on fighting for your happiness, do not regret about anything because if you did it it was for something. just fight for whatever you want and fuck everyone else. you deserve the best in the world as much as everyone else.
Thanks. I’m really trying. It’s just hard.