so me and a couple of friends went around and talked about the first time we ever got our periods and one of my friends said she went up to her mom and told her she had just gotten it and her mom pulled her into a hug and whispered in her ear “now you can get pregnant”
do you ever just “what the fuck is the point” so hard that you stop everything you’re doing and stare and pretty much wonder why you don’t vanish from existence because the level of done you are should pretty much deconstruct your biological makeup
theoceanswide: nobody ever fucking stops to ask me if i’m okay and if they do they never notice how…
nobody ever fucking stops to ask me if i’m okay and if they do they never notice how i always say im fine like cant you see it im everything but fine
dickochet: Have you ever regretted a decision you made so much that you think about it all the time…
Have you ever regretted a decision you made so much that you think about it all the time and you imagine all of the different ways the situation could have turned out if you didn’t mess up so bad
do u ever have those days where it feels like everybody has decided to ignore u at the same time and its like that one episode of spongebob where everybody left bikini bottom to get away from spongebob and ur spongebob
I think that all the time. But then I think, in 5 years who are they going to be to me? Probably nothing. We all would have moved on. But my family are still going to be there. And why would you ever want to do that to them. They’ll only blame themselves. Stick in there. Everything gets better with time. Day by day. That’s all you have to do. And you’ll look and feel like the strongest person in the world at the end of it.
I’m not contemplating suicide. I mean it metaphorically. As in, just disappearing from their lives cause they don’t need me. Why would they? I’m just a waste of space to them. But whatever. I want to graduate high school so I can actually start living and not worry about this anymore. I want to grow into the person I’m supposed to be with or without them. It sounds stupid I know but why do I need to be ignored everyday? Why do I have to suffer? I’m just tired of being on the end of the stick. Thank you though for this message. I appreciate it.